I feel horrible!!!!!?

my granddaddy died last dec, i was the only grandchild not ther out of 29, my dad put the phone next to him, and i told him how much i loved him, i did asked him to hold on for a few more hours, so i can get there in time to say goodbye, since im in virginia and he was in south carolina.but then i remember how much pain he must be in, i told him that i loved him very much and that i will always love him and think of him...always, cause he will live on in me. because he is such a big part of mylife. a few hours later he went. i got to south carolina about 6 hours after he died. my grandma gave me the jacket he had on when he went to the hospt. thats the only thing i wanted. i still hug that jacket and smell it, it still smells like him.